Saturday, May 2, 2020

Lilac Blossoms in the Cellar (1 May 2020)

“The Way is as Olde as Creation, and as
Fresh as every newborn creature.”
‑ Kerric, Elvenkrieg

There is One Rose for the One I love_
and a One‑ing in the Lilacs I strove
to conceal – where dalliance is given
to the champion of Gardening in May.                   1

“Here is a Lilac Bouquet for you, Poet.”

I thanked Her, though I knew her not,
and in the safety of glancing She went_
back to where I saw her coming again,
in the empowering scent of lilac boughs!               2

“Here’s a green porcelain vase as well.”

Visitors visiting my vistas at a New Dawn,
I flew in the One‑ing I knew for Her!
I gaped at the Heavens breaking down,
showing me God & Goddess in a Fawn!                3

“Shall I fill up the vase with water for you?”

She was scented like a Lilac Virgin;  
filling my Heart's vase with gifting flowers
while I sat upon my swivel‑chair, playing
with jacks I’d discovered in a cupboard!                  4

“I like your gargoyles. Are they real?”

Vine‑covered, I found the buds opening
and turning to the Queen of the Flowers
who was standing before me in chiffon –
It was then I saw Her;
and heard Her sprites playing on the lawn!              5

“You don’t know me yet, do you Poet?”

“Yes, I DO_” I protested, confusing strains.
But then Her eyes sparkled like fountains
and I re‑called the naming of a Poet’s Love;
“Christabell_” I said, dumbly, and sighed.                  6

“Shall I fill your chambers with Lilacs?”

I knew the query. “Yes, anything you want.”
She tickled my chin, went and came in again
with an armful of fragrance for my cellar!
“You’re so changed in aspect,” I observed.                 7

“You shall be too,
            once you heed Summerwood’s call.”

And as she went about filling all my vessels_
I sat in my swivel chair and summer‑dreamed
of luscious vapors beyond the Vale of Sense,
where the Muse, Four‑Folded, would come again.
 Magdalena--Christabell--Angelique--Elisabeth!         8

“We’re all waiting for you to wake up, Poet!”

I shook all quelled, sugared-off like Maple
in the trusses of Her secreting artifices!
I felt the juices within my soul-house roil,
and heard Her Quail and Dove calling all!                   9

“Goddess sent me; do you want all four of us,
or just me_”

“Yes_” I mumbled, overcome with sweet rainings.
I was heavily put upon_ for an hour or more,
skirted by swirls of Spiral‑Love, I knew the Four –
and wept for Remembrances engraved in Stone!       10

“Your chamber’s all full of Lilacs. What now?”

“Love_” I muttered, wandering aloud in strife,
_My  new word for Inspiration!-- 
not knowing my Muse-limitations were not yet set!
I breathed in the scented air and howled –
lost in the Graces of my Four Mused Wraiths!             11

“Shall we light candles, or the Bonfire brand!?”

I shuddered and woke – there were no Lilacs;
just the scent blowing in through the windows
left hung open through the Night Watches;
Poet’s wait upon their Muses
                    _and rage _and weep!                             12

“Shall we come back and visit you tonight?”

_Out of nowhere came the ethereal voice;
Fouring of the Muse – all masks giving-way!
I heard their summons like a lover’s entreat,
and knew I would be visited come twilight!                  13

“Will you be ready by half‑past eight?”

Sober I got up and went about some chores,
the day seeming to drag on into forever –
For I knew that come Midnight I would retire
_to begin the Vigil; Dumb Victim of my Sirens!             14
So mote it be.





[Originally penned in May 1991, this poetic narrative initiated a summer of writing, resulting in an early manuscript that I called The Shadows of Summerwood. The reference to "all Four of Us" refers to my vision of a 'Four-Fold Muse' as described in mature form in "Invocation of the Four-Fold Muse."   A version of this poem and Invocation of the Fourfold Muse were both published in Tales from the Seasons, 2006, pp. 16-21. Both versions are valid; each one has its poetics and directioning syntax.  See also "A Musing Life (2 February 2018)" at this blogspot for the evolution of my conceptions of the Muse.]


Monday, February 3, 2020

New Journeys; Old Words (2 February 2020, Brighidmas)

No matter how new our revelations,
the old words stay close by.
Resonances cling to us_
  olden meanings
      reverberate through
to the new worlding visions
we create.                                                1

"_O to go Naked through the Forest;
to strip off the old meanings
  and redress ourselves—
in insights; duds & gear
from emergent Wisdom’s closet!
Strange we would look
in our new raiment;
      re-haberdasheried!"                           2

Would we even recognize ourselves?

But the first job is to undress;
  to lay aside the garments
      that have, woven into them,
  the tarnished filaments
of worn-out meaning;
  tried _and now untrue.                            3

“Sometimes you have to burn
  the old clothes
      and run around
  Naked as sprites and faeries
for a while—
until the Seamstress – Wisdom –
weaves new finery for you.”
        —so said the Muse!                           4

“I want new pantaloons_”
  cries the impatient ego;
     stuck in olden grammars
      without a translator.
But the ego must wait_
  and not sew up desperate seams
  with thread leftover
from the old world’s ideas.                        5

To be an earthen mystic today
  is to wait upon Meaning’s Tailor_
Let her come and measure us anew!
To be wisening into Truth’s suspenders,
one must be patient with the parrots
who keep repeating the same old words
      in the same old way!                            6

“So come_
 let us run Naked for a while –
  frolicking at refreshing waterfalls,
  dancing ‘round wise and aged trees,
      following the meandering streams
of being-in-becoming!”                                7
           
Listening for the syntaxes
      strange to our mortal ears,
        I dance down to the Well of Segais_
        Where the poetic soul revels;
                 and the Silver Trout speak!        8

So be it!









Thursday, December 12, 2019

The Winter Solstice & Joy: A Meditation (12 December 2019)

 “Allow yourself to trust joy and embrace it.  You will find you dance with everything.”
-        Ralph Waldo Emerson

“May all beings learn how to nourish themselves with joy each day.”
-        Thich Nhat Hanh
“Give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness.”
-        Isaiah 61:3

Every season has associated with it, themes, emotions, stories and rituals that, when brewed together, make manifest its aesthetic, narrative and spiritual ‘gist.’  Of all the seasons of the earthen year, the Winter Solstice Season is for me the one most suggestive of joy.  Joy is its ‘backgrounding ambience.’  Joy emerges through my anticipation of the Winter Solstice and my practice of rituals and disciplines associated the calendar of the Thirteen Nights and Dayes of Yule.  It then comes-to-stand in whatever I glean and learn from my annual pilgrimage; journeying to the nemeton of Christmas and beyond—when the days are lengthening, once again.  Joy is a primitive and archaic ‘touchstone’ of the Winter Solstice Season; its emotional and spiritual ‘rune.’  I have found indications and cyphers of this in Pagan, Christian and Naturalistic observations of the Winter Solstice.
To celebrate the Winter Solstice Season intentionally, according to whatever spiritual or secular tradition one participates in, is, I believe, to seek a deeper experience of Nature and ourselves; one that spirals around and alludes to – if not embraces or even all the time makes manifest – joy.  Why is this?  To understand this, let us explore a couple of questions.
 
What is the Winter Solstice Season?  At its root, beneath all of the cultural and religious traditions that surround it in societies across the northern hemisphere,[1] it is an experience of ending and beginning again.  The diminishing days have long been associated, in myth and legends, with the end of a solar cycle; a solar ‘year.’  In many Pagan traditions, the Winter Solstice was (and is) symbolically interpreted as the ‘death’ of the sun of the old year, which is then followed by the birth of the ‘New Sun’ of the next solar cycle.  The birth of a ‘New Sun’ was often symbolized by the birth of a god of light.  As John Matthews said in The Winter Solstice: The Sacred Traditions of Christmas (1998):
“A surprising number of the gods of the ancient classical world shared Nativity stories that would later influence the story of the birth of Jesus.  Among those recorded are Tammuz (Mesopotamia), Attis (Asia Minor) Apollo and Dionysius (Greece), Mithris (Rome) and Baal (Palestine).  All are wonder children, born under extraordinary circumstances and conditions at the time of Winter Solstice.” (51)
It is in large part because of this mythos surrounding Winter’s Solstice that Christians established the birth of Jesus at this auspicious moment of earthen time, his being for them the ultimate Divine Child of Light.  As Elinor W Gadon says in The Once and Future Goddess, (1989):
“The Winter Solstice is a day of cosmic portents.  ... Most pagan mysteries celebrated the birth of the Divine Child at the Winter Solstice.  Christians also took this day for the birth of their savior god, Jesus Christ.” (199)
This ‘birth’ of a ‘New Sun’ – symbolized by the Divine Child – gave people a sense that they, too, could ‘start over;’ begin again—it liberated them to seek out personal renewal as well as reconciliation with others, both with the Divine (by whatever name the Great Mystery was known) and with family, friends, neighbors and the wider human community.  The symbolic heft of the whole Winter Solstice Season sets us up for such renewal.  The Christian season of Advent, which is celebrated over the last four Sundays before Christmas, also has this implicit spiritual thrust, as the Trappist Thomas Merton said in his wonderful little book, Seasons of Celebration (1965):
“The Advent Mystery is a mystery of beginning, but it is also the mystery of an end.  The fullness of time is the end of all that was not yet fullness.  It is the completion of all that was still incomplete, all that was still partial.  It is the fulfillment in oneness of all that was fragmentary.  The Advent mystery in our own lives is the beginning of the end of all, in us, that is not yet Christ.  It is the beginning of the end of unreality.  And that is surely a cause of joy!  But we cling to our unreality, we prefer the part to the whole, we continue to be fragments, we do not want to be “a whole person in Christ”.” (95)
This sense of renewal; expressed via the themes of ‘ending’ and ‘beginning’—and all of the traditions and beliefs that spiral around it, flows from a very logical, symbolic way of understanding the phenomenon of lengthening nights and shortening days which is, in turn, the simple physical consequence of our planet’s orbit around our Sun, tilted as we are, slightly (about 23˚) to one side, in relation to the plane of that orbit.  It always amazes me how our species can construct elaborate symbolic structures around naturalistic phenomena!  It is one sign of our deep spiritual nature; the metaphoring of reality enables us to point to something beyond ourselves—beyond the mundane and the obvious.
Merton suggested in the above quote that the sense of “beginning” is a “cause for joy.”  So we should now ask, What is joy?  As has often been pointed out, it is not the same thing as being ‘happy.’  Joy is different from happiness, yet related to it.  Happiness depends upon immediate circumstances; it is often but not always fleeting—it comes and goes as our situation in life and the conditions in which we find ourselves change.  Joy is a deeper phenomenon; it is a psychological state connected to a genuine communion, as the human beings we are, with the Earth and in community with other human beings.  It is grounded in our acceptance of ourselves; who we are, where we are; including the decisions that have brought us to this present moment.  It involves embracing our flaws and brokenness as well as the progress we have made toward being the best version of ourselves that we can be[come]; this being one major root-goal of a spiritual life.
Joy is not giddiness or simple boisterous expression.  It is often a quiet, sustaining feeling of gentle uplift that flows from being deeply in-touch with our truest-self in the midst of daily life in the round of the earthen seasons; being resourced in a contemplative acceptance of ourselves as a manifestation of Nature; a consciousness of which augments and deepens ordinary experience--as well as opening us to transcendent identities wrought from myth, spiritualities and authentic religion.  You cannot ‘generate’ joy by an act of will!  To find joy, you must needs find and embrace yourself; know yourself—which involves understanding where you are and with whom your life is interwoven, locally and even universally.
Genuine joy is connected to hope; hope being a psychological ‘attitude’ that stems from authentic dwelling in Earth & Spirit that in turn empowers us to imagine possible life-affirming futures.  Hope is not optimism; just as a lack of hope is not pessimism.  Hope stands at the present juncture in which we exist; at this moment, reconnoiters the past and all that has happened, standing open to the possibility of a better future.  It does not say "ah_ the future will be bright!"  Nor does it despair of any better future.  Hope stands-forth in the belief that a better future is possible.
Joy sustains; hope looks forward to a better, more humane world.  True hope and a false -- i.e., naive, simplistic, sentimental, superstitious, or delusional -- understanding of the world and/or one’s self are mutually exclusive.  A lack of hope is often indicative of a lack of joy; and vice versa.  For those who have found themselves and nurture their joy, “The mere sense of living is joy enough,” as Emily Dickinson once wrote.  Hope then abounds, wherever possible.
 
Why should the Winter Solstice Season be so associated with joy?  Or, perhaps, why should joy be a touchstone or ‘rune’ of this Season?
 
Because, of all the earthen seasons, it is the one that deeply symbolizes -- via that metaphoring of the 'Solar cycle' as perceived from our planetary situation in it -- the imminence of death and the possibility of rebirth; it stands at a point in the year that has been construed, symbolically, as the crux of ending and beginning—and as such portends the hope of new beginnings.[2]  And in new beginnings, we find it possible, once again, to more authentically connect to our truest selves.  What has gone well in the last ween months?  What have we achieved?  What has gone wrong in the last year?  What didn’t work out?  What have we done that we might regret or despair of?  What have we lost?  What have we given up?  Or perhaps we have simply lost our way since last being ‘here’ – i.e., at the threshold of the Winter Solstice Season?  Whatever our journey through the year has been like, with its successes and spiritual progress, failures and regrets, as well as whatever you might want to cast off or remedy, reclaim or affirm, the Winter Solstice Season gives us a chance to re-set and start out again on the spiral journey through the year.  While you can never completely of fully reset yourself – and this is truer the longer you live – renewal and a re-directioning of the self with better or renewed goals and ideals is always possible.  Hope carries possibilities in its stride not available without its resonance.
  This chance for renewal and conscious spiritual ‘course (re)setting’ for the coming year is one impetus for joy; hope naturally arising from the depths of our mortal being and making it possible to reaffirm our best aspirations, once and ever again.  While hurtful, wearying or damaging circumstances can tarnish this natural flow of hope and deaden the potential experience of joy, no matter how broken we may have become over the course of the previous eleven months, no matter what we have had to deal with, the Winter Solstice Season offers a chance for discovering, refreshing and renewing ourselves_ and in that finding the seeds of renewed joy.  _Seeds which hope may mature over time.
You can be in a state of ‘joy’ even if you are not ‘happy’ at some particular moment.  Joy is linked to our love of life; our affirmation of our mortal existence and all of its potential paths, roads, trails_ and even our waylostness.  We may wonder as we wander, and still be uplifted in a subtle sense of joy when we recollect ourselves in devout self-reflection, as in meditation, at Winter Solstice or at any point throughout the earthen year.
You can be joyful and happy at the same time, but you can also experience and be sustained by that deep undercurrent of joy when your life is disordered by circumstances beyond your control.  Attention to the flux and flow of life can facilitate a renewed connection to the undercurrent of joy beneath.  This does not mean that in the presence of tragedy and death you are walking around blissful with a smile on your face!  That would be absurd, if not a sign of a serious disconnect from life.  Rather, when you find your joy and can nurture it authentically, you tap into one of those deep source-springs of vivaciousness and persistence that can buoy us up when more transient emotions may evaporate and fail us.
The experience of joy is deeply linked to the experience of beauty.  The old word delectatio describes a response to beauty characterized by joy and delight.  The beauty of the natural world is an external impetus for the rise of joy on our selves.  The world is full of potential moments of beauty; experiences of others, of music, of Nature or intellectual, sensual and imaginative scenarios.  Sometimes, when we cannot get ‘in touch’ with our own deep selves, seeking out – and being open to – experiences of natural beauty can liberate us into the narthexes of joy, which experiences then facilitate the resourcement of self-understanding.  For this reason, the philosopher Blaise Pascal once suggested that in difficult times or situations, we should turn to a touchstone of beauty, and that we should 'carry it’ with us.  This requires that we have ‘collected’ moments of beauty, that we can then reflect on, when hard things happen.  It only takes being aware of our surroundings and being open to possibilities in the moment of each day to experience beauty in its wondrous particularity, here and there – often hidden from us in the world as go about ‘asleep at the wheel.’  To help inspire ourselves to joy, we can seek out a moment of beauty every day.
 
“Joyful_ Joyful_ Old Sun is Dying; but a New Sun shall soon be born!”

Each year during December, as I engage in traditional rituals, stories and imagery; decking my place of dwelling with the evergreens, colors and lights of Yule, I hope to be able to return to the wellspring-of-the-self where I may be refreshed and find a deeper joy.  For me, joy usually re-emerges, often gradually, through the course of the Winter Solstice Season.  Some years it manifests earlier than in others, yet I can think of no year in which my devout, poetic and experiential pathing through the Winter Solstice Season did not lead to at least some small resourcement in joy.
 
“If we die with the Old Sun, we may be reborn with the New.”
 
And so with hope I say, each year as I approach and enter the Winter Solstice Season, that whether we are aware of it or not; whether we even celebrate it or not_ the Winter Solstice still comes—and that subtle, buoyant feeling that is ‘joy’ may not easily be suppressed once it manifests in our Heart (i.e., our deep center).  For those who center themselves and go adventuring through the mythic and symbolic tapestries of the Winter Solstice Season, according to whatever tradition they follow, all of the frenetic and frantic activity that usually holds us prisoner in its sway may well fall away, at last.  _And then, on the first morning after Winter Solstice, we may find ourselves able to rise and exclaim:

“Joyful, Joyful, we dance and adore you_ bright New Sun!”

So mote it be!

I will leave you with a few Words for Meditation on Joy and Beauty:
 
Lectio # 1—
 
“Happy, indeed, are they through whose souls course the genial currents of ancient tradition, who with natural and non-rational joy can stop to drink of the springs of wonder, under the tree and beside the manger; for they are precisely those who enter abundantly into the Kingdom of Christmas and come to know and love the human beauties and the holy mysteries thereof.” (11)
-        William Muir Auld
Christmas Traditions (1931)
Lectio # 2—
 
“Verily, I may have this and that for sufferers, but always I seem to have done better when I learned to feel better joys.  As long as there have been men, man has felt too little joy: that alone, my brothers, is our original sin.  And learning better to feel joy, we best unlearn how to do harm to others and to embrace harm.
-        Friedrich Nietzsche
Thus Spoke Zarathustra in “On the Pitying” (pt ii, 3)
Lectio #3—
 
“That the natural world can bring us peace; that the natural world can give us joy; these are the confirmations of what many people may instinctively feel but have not been able to articulate: that nature is not an extra, a luxury, but on the contrary is indispensable; part of our essence.” (238)
-        Michael McCarthy
The Moth Snowstorm: Nature and Joy (2015)
Lectio # 4—
 
“Beauty has its purposes, which all our lives and at every season, it is our opportunity, and our joy, to divine.  Nothing outside ourselves makes us desire to do so; the questions, and the striving toward answers, come from within.”
-        Mary Oliver
Upstream (2016)
Lectio # 5—
 
“Hope is a function of not-knowing.  It is a longing for change, experienced in necessary ignorance of when that change will come or what form it will take.” (302)
 
-        Robert MacFarlane
Landscapes (2015)
Lectio # 6—
 
“The world does not, in its deep design, embody all forms of beauty, nor the ones that people without special study, or very unusual taste, find most appealing.  But the world does, in its deep design, embody some forms of beauty that have been rightly prized for their own sake, and have been intuitively associated with the divine.” (223)
 
-        Frank Wilczek
A Beautiful Question (2015)




[1] I say this because I am primarily familiar with traditions in the northern hemisphere.  The Winter Solstice happens, of course, in the southern hemisphere, but on June 21 not in December.  I would love to learn about Winter Solstice traditions from the southern hemisphere and discover whether they also portend joy and are connected with hope and renewal. If anyone wants to discuss this with me, please feel free to contact me.

[2] Other seasons and the festivals that mark them are ‘on the way’ from birth to death; they represent the spiral journey of life.  They are symbolic of the different stages we go through as we grow and mature and then move into the repose of old age.  Only Winter Solstice has this symbolic sense of death and rebirth about it.

[3] There is a Pagan version of the “Thirteen Dayes” presented in my book, The Fires of Yule (2011) associated with the fictional Neo-Pagan Keltelven traditions, and then a literary-aesthetic version, found in my book, Heart and Hearth (2005) associated with the Whittiers.  While the calendars evince surface differences (e.g., the naming of some of the days is different), the ‘logic’ of the journey is largely the same.  The spelling “Dayes” is said in-world to derive from Egbert Whittier’s book of 1835, in which the full calendar of the Thirteen ‘Dayes; was first published for the family.